You May Get No Satisfaction… But I Love Britney Spears

anigif_enhanced-buzz-9916-1380726268-17_previewI barely take fan moments because I don’t have a lot of celebrities that I simply adore.  You know how some people are just obsessed with certain musicians, entertainers and actors? Well I have my well known obsession with Whitney Houston, but another obsession I don’t talk about as much is Britney Spears.

People are all over social media trashing her for her dancing in her newest music video.  Blasting the song she released titled Work Bitch saying things like:

Where is the old Britney?

What happened to the Britney that could dance her ass off?

So Over Britney…

Before I address those questions I have to tell you why I feel an obligation to support her and her career.

This isn’t a new obsession.  I fell in love with her from the very first time I had ever heard one of her songs. I remember it as if it was yesterday. Way back in 1999 when I was in middle school …Baby One More TIme was released.  As a gay boy who had not yet come out her album called to me and touched my heart.  I was one of those boys who dreamed of love.  A love that I never thought was possible. I wanted it all. I wanted the first kiss, the feeling of butterflies in my stomach.  I wanted to feel heartbreak, just to know someone loved me enough to break my heart.  I was depressed back then if that wasn’t clear.

None-the-less I was able to lock myself into my bedroom and put in the very first studio album by Britney Spears, …Baby One More Time. I’d play through the songs dreaming of the love, emotions and feelings behind songs like:

  • I Will Be There
  • (You Drive Me) Crazy
  • Deep In My Heart
  • Born to Make You Happy
  • Sometimes
  • and of course …Baby One More Time

The music flowed through me as if the music was dancing in my heart telling me I would find love. I would date. I would find the life that I have now, but back then scared the hell out of me.

Yes, maybe that’s a lot to credit Britney’s music with, but if you don’t believe me you can take a flying leap! Okay, just kidding. I do believe you are welcome to your own opinions.

As I grew Britney continued to inspire me. As I entered high school I realized I couldn’t hide who I was any more so I came out at 16.  It wasn’t easy.  In fact it was terrifying and one of the most painful times of my life.  I’d find myself crying constantly, but have no fear. I was still able to go home and put in the newest album by Britney Spears, Oops…I Did It Again.

I’d play Stronger on repeat.  Because I knew I could do it.  I was a year older, a year wiser and frankly as the song said “I didn’t need anybody”.  I learned that I was strong and my own person.  After a makeover thanks to a team of cheerleaders I launched myself into what I felt was a new persona and regardless of how people felt “What You See Is What You Get” which happened to be another song on Britney’s second studio album.

From there she inspired me to start dancing.  I was scared of what people would think.  Living in Virginia I wasn’t sure how people would take a male dancer.  Yet, I did it and I finally found a hobby that gave me strength, courage and pride. I owe that to watching Britney Spears videos.

With all this said, I simply wanted to say that I adore Britney and consider myself a super fan.  While many people are trashing her new single, Work Bitch, I have to say one thing to them and that is to turn the song or music video off if you don’t like it.  We all have our reasons for continuing to support her career.  She may not be the Britney we once knew, but are you still the person you were in 1999 when she blew onto the scene?

I’m not. I’m not longer a gay boy in middle school hiding the fact that I am gay. I am no longer a high school student trying to figure out the life of a gay man. I am now a 27-year-old man living with my partner in Los Angeles loving my fabulously gay life.

We all change and I am the type of person who embraces change. Britney is a true artist and she is working it.

Song of the Day – My Prerogative by Britney Spears

Song of the Day – My Prerogative by Britney Spears

It’s not hard to figure out why I have chosen this song today.  It’s pretty literal and sends a strong message that people should just mind their own business and let a boy live.  Why do you have to talk crap?  Why do you have to call me crazy? Why can’t you just let me live?

The biggest problem isn’t just that people are talking all this shit about me, but they don’t have a clue what they’re talking about.  You can read into a tweet or into a flirtatious vibration but it really may just be friends joking around. To add to that I am an adult venturing into a new world and new life.  I will make mistakes along the road but everything I do is up to me.  I no longer need permissions so you can easily let me roll with it and just let me live.

Really though my life isn’t that crazy.  I just want to enjoy some yoga and acupuncture in the next week, maybe a cocktail after work from time to time, go on a long run and sometimes cut loose.  I make my own decisions and that is my prerogative.  If you want to read my life through this blog or twitter though, please do and enjoy because that’s why I tweet about it and blog it. With that said, if you do take issue please feel free not to read or follow me.  I am still tripping out that two pro-life groups followed me and had issues with my extremely liberal and  supportive of women’s health and rights tweets and blogging.  Why follow me and read my stuff if you have an issue with it?  People, some just live for the drama and some of us just live in non-stop drama when we don’t want to.  Fact of life I guess.

My Prerogative by Britney Spears

Song of the Day – Overprotected (Darkchild Remix) by Britney Spears

Song of the Day – Overprotected (Darkchild Remix) by Britney Spears

If you’ve ever seen the movie Muriel’s Wedding you know that the main character (Muriel) is obsessed with the group Abba.  At one point in the movie she says “life is as good as an Abba song”.  Similarly to Muriel’s constant need to listen to music and relate life to it I have been listening to music and relating my life to it every day recently.  Even more so, I have been listening to Britney Spears and relating my daily life to her music since I was in middle/high school.

Just about everyday I make a joke with one of my friends that my life (and really both of our lives) are like a constant country song.  Then out of the blue he sent me a message saying that I really am Britney Spears style overprotected.  Taking a break from our talk about country music I realized how true this is.  It was fitting because while he was giving me advice a few minutes earlier I asked, “why does everyone seem to know what is best for me but me when it comes to my life?”

I have asked a few people this same question recently and all have had a similar response.  Appropriately, each has said something along the lines of, “it is just that people care and know how smacked out your brain is lately. They want to help you, protect you and comfort you.”

To an extent I feel this song is completely fitting.  I totally have been rocking this song out since my teen years. The lyrics are just dead on.  I swear my friend and I had the exact conversation of the chorus:

Me:         What am I to do with my life
Friend:  (You will find it out don’t worry)
Me:         How Am I supposed to know what’s right?
Friend:  (You just got to do it your way)

And this section is something I have sang out for since my teens.  It’s been a theme of my inner dialogue:

I tell ’em what I like
What I want
What I don’t
But every time I do I stand corrected
Things that I’ve been told
I can’t believe what I hear about the world, I realize
I’m Overprotected

And this section:

I don’t need nobody telling me just what I wanna
What I what what what I’m gonna
Do about my destiny
I Say No, No
Nobody’s telling me just what what what I wanna do, do
I’m so fed up with people telling me to be
Someone else but me

You know I should just stop posting the lyrics.  The song is just so groovin and movin to my world.  I’m finally faced with the ability to find me.  To find who I want to be and to find what I want to be.  I feel like in high school I chose pre-law to be my college direction because it’s what people wanted of me.  I started running because my family loved running and wanted it for me.  I did marching band for the same reason.

Now at 26 I am young enough still find who I am for me, embrace who I am once I find myself and experience the world without blinders on. So today’s song is Overprotected (Darkchild Remix) by Britney Spears.  A bit from my past a bit from my present. Britney’s been an influence for years and the meaning of this song has been mirroring feelings inside of me for as long as I can remember.