Song of the Day – Dog Days are Over by Florence and the Machine
I woke up this morning refreshed and happy. Not, life’s problems are still very much problems and very much real, but I found a way to live with the pain and issues I am dealing with. How? Well, I’m living! The dumbest thing I have done throughout the past two months (really the past six) has been my ritual of sitting at home doing nothing but being sad and alone. Now, I am dancing. Now I am going out to coffee with friends. Now I am going to an open bar to grab a free cocktail and meet friends of friends. I’m putting the black clothing back in the closet and pulling out my summer flare. I am planning trips to see family and friends outside of the city. I am living.
Let me tell you. I flipped my iPod player on this morning before getting in the shower and the first song that came on while I waited for the water to warm up was this song. At first I just let it play for a few seconds without acknowledging it. Then the clapping started in the song. It was like the music took over my body. I went into the living room and let my dog out of her crate and then immediately started dancing around the living room like the biggest goof on the planet. Evian, my dog, danced around me on her hind legs. I am sure she was going through a bit of relief to get out of her crate and also excited to hear and see jubilation in the apartment.
Sometimes you have to release hate. Sometimes you have to release anger. Sometimes you have to let all your emotions float out of your finger tips and realize that the only way things will get better is if you make them. When you decide that you truly can sing to the heavens that your dark days are over.
I am sick of being angry and hostile. And I have had an amazing two days in response to that realization. I must admit that this weeks visit to my therapist was enormously beneficial because I experienced such a breakthrough people have taken notice of the changes in me.