I barely take fan moments because I don’t have a lot of celebrities that I simply adore. You know how some people are just obsessed with certain musicians, entertainers and actors? Well I have my well known obsession with Whitney Houston, but another obsession I don’t talk about as much is Britney Spears.
People are all over social media trashing her for her dancing in her newest music video. Blasting the song she released titled Work Bitch saying things like:
Where is the old Britney?
What happened to the Britney that could dance her ass off?
So Over Britney…
Before I address those questions I have to tell you why I feel an obligation to support her and her career.
This isn’t a new obsession. I fell in love with her from the very first time I had ever heard one of her songs. I remember it as if it was yesterday. Way back in 1999 when I was in middle school …Baby One More TIme was released. As a gay boy who had not yet come out her album called to me and touched my heart. I was one of those boys who dreamed of love. A love that I never thought was possible. I wanted it all. I wanted the first kiss, the feeling of butterflies in my stomach. I wanted to feel heartbreak, just to know someone loved me enough to break my heart. I was depressed back then if that wasn’t clear.
None-the-less I was able to lock myself into my bedroom and put in the very first studio album by Britney Spears, …Baby One More Time. I’d play through the songs dreaming of the love, emotions and feelings behind songs like:
- I Will Be There
- (You Drive Me) Crazy
- Deep In My Heart
- Born to Make You Happy
- and of course …Baby One More Time
The music flowed through me as if the music was dancing in my heart telling me I would find love. I would date. I would find the life that I have now, but back then scared the hell out of me.
Yes, maybe that’s a lot to credit Britney’s music with, but if you don’t believe me you can take a flying leap! Okay, just kidding. I do believe you are welcome to your own opinions.
As I grew Britney continued to inspire me. As I entered high school I realized I couldn’t hide who I was any more so I came out at 16. It wasn’t easy. In fact it was terrifying and one of the most painful times of my life. I’d find myself crying constantly, but have no fear. I was still able to go home and put in the newest album by Britney Spears, Oops…I Did It Again.
I’d play Stronger on repeat. Because I knew I could do it. I was a year older, a year wiser and frankly as the song said “I didn’t need anybody”. I learned that I was strong and my own person. After a makeover thanks to a team of cheerleaders I launched myself into what I felt was a new persona and regardless of how people felt “What You See Is What You Get” which happened to be another song on Britney’s second studio album.
From there she inspired me to start dancing. I was scared of what people would think. Living in Virginia I wasn’t sure how people would take a male dancer. Yet, I did it and I finally found a hobby that gave me strength, courage and pride. I owe that to watching Britney Spears videos.
With all this said, I simply wanted to say that I adore Britney and consider myself a super fan. While many people are trashing her new single, Work Bitch, I have to say one thing to them and that is to turn the song or music video off if you don’t like it. We all have our reasons for continuing to support her career. She may not be the Britney we once knew, but are you still the person you were in 1999 when she blew onto the scene?
I’m not. I’m not longer a gay boy in middle school hiding the fact that I am gay. I am no longer a high school student trying to figure out the life of a gay man. I am now a 27-year-old man living with my partner in Los Angeles loving my fabulously gay life.
We all change and I am the type of person who embraces change. Britney is a true artist and she is working it.